Sarai - It's Not A Fairytale |
It's Not A Fairytale
Sarai It all started like this Ninth grade freshman year So happy to be in high school I shed a tear o many cute dudes to choose from I knew it was one That was right for me Well I thought at least He was the big guy on campus On the football team Basketball homecoming I was on the cheerleading squad He was voted for king And there was me Sweet sixteen looking for love in my heart I was a beautiful thing from the start I must say only problem was They ain't play My parents were strict No phone calls after eight No stayin out late I'm like damn give me a break Start displayin my shape Hormones kickin in More concern with my looks than my books and grades Curiosity come on headed nowhere fast I was on my way I know y'all relate Thinkin bout the chatacters in my story for things that i have been through all the pages i have read through Save tomorrow's fairytale And all thigns that i have be in all my life and all my days i never thought i would end up this way It's been a year now I'm a sophmore but still I'm young and dumb Mature and know more and plus im unsure Who I am What the future has in store Man I'm trying to be grown Cuz my parents are divorced stressing started smoking newports carefree about the ones who care for me lost teen giving up on my dream and as worst as it seems had me thinking crazy things like suicide that better everything if i jus die fullIm startin to get stomach pains Thinkin bout the chatacters in my story That's strange what could be wrong? all the pages i have read through Save tomorrow's fairytale for things that i have been through And all thigns that i have be in all my life and all my days i never thought i would end up this way a child givin birth to a child I ask myself every day this wasnt supposed to happen what can i say here i am turned my back on my fam well God damn that wasn't even part of the plan When I lay at night the hurt I'm spazzin out just burst out I should how could he leave at my time of need especially now I'm pregnant And due in three Maybe I should have it and give it for adoption I can't graduate I ain't been to school since August Often I hear this voice talking In the back of my mind So problems in my life God take me leave my child behind I just pray for my time to come I'm on the run adrenaline pumpin dont make me prove it cause if you dont do it so angry i could kill something then i will do it I'm foolish and so stupid |